So as some of you crazy’s who follow me, know I have been slacking dearly on writing on here, would love to say I’m feeling wonderful & am so busy that I just don’t have time.. but I can’t lie. I really have NO excuse what so ever! =(
This thanksgiving was extremely hard on me, I spent it alone, 
my family always goes to our cabin & last year they came down here, so this year I insisted they go to the cabin. I am not second guessing my insist. but oh how I missed them!! my phone only rang a few times, one for a call & a few lonely text. I had a couple of friend say they will text & keep me a little company, but they fell thru, this seems to be happening alot, infact I was thinking about that yesterday when a friend texted & asked what I was doing.. I said thinking lol and perceded to tell him, that I let myself believe in people to much, when they say they are going to do something I kinda expect them to.. is that wrong? ya sure things do come up, but a simple text or call saying just that “something come up I can’t do it” would solve all the assuming.. right?? heck you know it’s bad when I got stood up on a virtual date last night! hahahahaha yea you read that right a virtual date, watching football & amazing race. well not only did I get stood up, but he.. oh nevermind there goes my blood pressure! haha j/k
but it reminds me of a song… ok kinda lol I’m not talking about love… just “I mean what I say”
I’m a man of my word, I mean what I say
My pledge is my bond, that’s just my way
When you’ve made a promise, to someone who’s gone
Well that’s when forever seems a little too long
I’m a man of my word, I made you a vow
I swore that I’d love you, I can’t change that now
They tell my I’m free to find someone new
But I just don’t have the heart
Cause I gave mine to youWhen I said my love would last for all time,
And no-one could take your place
Well If that promise was that last sound you heard
Well you know I kept it, I’m a man of my wordI’m a man of my word, and it’s cost me so dear
Cause those words are a prison, without you here
And I’ll go to my grave, with this torch held high
But just once I wish, I told you a lieWhen I said my love would last for all time,
And no-one could take your place
Well If that promise was that last sound you heard
Well you know I kept it, I’m a man of my wordYes I’ll always love you, I’m a man of my word `Collin Raye
so I guess this is another episode where I think I was born in the wrong century… =(
Sometimes people put up walls not to keep people out, but to see who’s willing to break them down… well I think my wall got a few more layers tall this weekend.. =(
